Over the past few years this blog has granted me a unique glimpse into our collective humanity. Not only in the words we share and the comments we leave, but in the questions we ask when we are alone with our search engines.
What follows are 150 actual search terms that led people to my blog in the past year.
I have copied these phrases verbatim from my analytics dashboard, sorted them by topic, arranged them by plot and cadence. I have added only question marks.
I hope you will read these words as short stories, as found poetry. They are startling, confusing, hilarious, and heartbreaking. Together, they form a candid view of our bizarre human condition – all pain and longing and profanity and hope.
distinguish between the concepts of love and hate
i dunno what the fuck i’m feeling
so maybe i don’t want to live anymore
i just don’t feel the same way anymore
how do some people have their shit together?
i wish i didn’t have a body
i want to blog but i hate
who the hell is micah j. murray?
god needs to stop creating more people
friends who can’t get their shit together
poop doesn’t hold together
bipolar man dismantled engine
micah j. murray bipolar
can god make me white?
that won’t be a problem i’m from scotland
images of without coffee, there would be chaos and darkness
true stories people making it after having their heart broken
is hate a greater sin than pre marital sex?
is streeping a sin?
are hobbies a sin?
if a muslim is driving a car and unknowinly hits a person.is it a sin?
i sin a lot. it’s hard to love me.
i sin too much to play on the worship team
pics of jesus in heaven
jesus christ teacher, judge but did not go to college
did paul hang out with jesus?
how do we manage to have jesus picture since there was no camera then?
crap my faith in god is slipping
i’m having trouble believing in jesus, does god not what me in heaven?
is it normal that after years of looking for jesus i start to believe that he is not there?
i’m doing all the right things for god but nothings happening
i have been treated like dirt and thought i heard god say to hang on and wait. but its enough now, nothing is changing
i tried believing in something but wound up miserable
i don’t want to be brainwashed by christianity
i was raised a christian, now i’m atheist. is there something wrong?
did god make me to send me to hell since i’m not baptized and he knew i wouldn’t be?
it will be very sad to wake up every morning go to church die and go to hell
faith does not give answer it stops u from asking all them questions
has anyone won the lottery by believing and having faith?
my belief in god keeps me broke and miserable
what books should i read to stop believing in god?
how to challenge john piper followers
help! i’m tired of debating calvinism they won’t leave me alone?
some bible scholars says, god has conducted his election on those that will be in heaven with him. is it true?
i’m a girl and i believe in calvinism
john piper leaves me feeling guilty
worried i am not elect
calvinism has ruined my faith
i am so glad god chose me before i was born because he would not choose me after i was born.
american men fashions atrocious
how can someone change these ugly looks inherited from parents?
what to do when you’re not that good looking anymore
i wish i was a hot woman
eating money or having sex in the church which one is better?
show me naked fotos of men and women
only sexy hot videos in that women don’t have dress on body
images of clothes , which i can wear before going to sex
i am love i give some sex
we in love, we had sex.we are christian.do god still love us?
jesus save me im not a virgin anymore
what part of tge body wears out alot cause of sex?
men men men and more men
every where we go men stare lustfully at my sexy hot wife
my wife shits
i kissed dating goodbye ruined my life
is it wrong for me to marry a lady from another church rather from my church?
how to find a healthy reformed believing christinan woman
i knew you when we were young and now you are an amazing sexy man
please help me find me somewhere to stay to support me and mines and fuck yuh bitch cause yuh dont mean nothing to me
is kissing a friend who is dating someone else wrong?
don’t know how to be seductive
dating four men want to dismiss all of them without hurting them much what do i do?
what is another word to use when saying im being tired of my marriage?
norm, why do you have an interest in me? do you think i want to punish you for what has happened?
what is it called when u want to.be with someone but you dnt even have ur shyt together and neather does he?
the spirit of lesbian came upon us,stories
if we are to love one another why is being a lebisian wrong?
what should we say to a lesbian?
im not gay but lust to men what is wrong with me?
at what age do people decide they are gay?
how do gays know that they are in love?
im gay n i believe in god will i go to heaven?
im christian but i cant help from being gay
i’ve been called to preach but i’m gay
i am gay and wonder if god loves me and listens to me when i talk and pray to him
i’m gay and i can’t say it
will everyone hate me if they knew i am gay?
my son came out as gay and i don’t like him anymore
male non biased viewpoint of feminism
60 years have passed since we could turn on the television & see women in skirts tending to their place in the kitchen
why aren’t i allowed to hurt women?
can a woman dominate a man completely in real fight?
christian feminists want a matriarchy
shirtless men and christianity
are women in anyway sexually attracted to a man’s bare chest?
is it ok for women to need men?
essays based on the dangers of seductive femininity
film of guy walking down country road talking about gender equity
women’s favourite male body parts
why do men grunt when they see a pretty woman?
do men actually like women or just as sexual objects?
do men picture all women naked?
why are women’s bodies sexual but not men’s?
tips on how to.handle men who like prostitutes
im a conservative christian and im struggling with being a liberal
i love barack obama so much
i didn’t join facebook to have someone preach their politics to me
obama so loved the poor he decided to make some more bumper sticker
black men amaze me sometimes, the very people that fought & lost their lives to overthrow oppression by the white man
why are so many americans believing in science over faith in jesus?
are there any devout christians still left in the usa?
feeling depressed and tired because of extremely religious family
mom doesn’t think i’m christian enough
can mothers actually get to a point where they cant stand their children anymore?
can’t do home school anymore i’m so worn out my husband doesn’t want to pay for christian school
homeschooling hurt my relationship with my children
what are we suppose to do if chirstian adult daughter walks away from faith and blogs about it putting parents down?
can my child go to heaven if she doesn’t believe in god?
someone told me years ago while praying for me saw a division sign on my head what does this mean?
extremely depressed cant listen to christian music why?
ppl be on fb professing their ljve for christ but in real life they don’t
i hate facebook i’m a christian
im a christian but i dont just want to always be sharing the gospel, whats wrong with me?
how to explain to a loved one that you dont think they are truly saved christian
what to say to someone who quit believing in god
how to win with an asshole christian
christians having their poop together
in school i was attending this cool fellowship. it was known on campus to have many pretty girls in attendance
i was walking into church. i heard weird sounds. what does it mean?
why we should accept people who wobble their heads in church?
why does my pastor threaten me with bad luck for not giving his church my tithes?
why does it feel better going to church high?
why do christains shit on people?
sunday you are blessed in church and monday you are alone depressed
what to do when it seems like the whole church is against you
no where to fit in church sucks
woman in my church posted nudes online
preachers using fear, guilt, anger to keep their kids in the church
too much church makes girls judgemental and mean
my church authorities hides sexual harassment
my pastor pushes me away from church because i refuse to have sex with him
my church broke my heart
god doesn’t want ugly people in church
life outside church is great ive never felt so alive
is it normal to feel alone after leaving church?
what would be the perfect church for my generation?
i’m the god of my own reality
i’m very good at what i do i’m not denying that i’m really good at what i do it’s something i’m uniqely designed for
i don’t have any energy anymore no staminai don’t have any energy anymore no stamina
i am not pleased i have had a long day and i do not need this shit
published December 29, 2014
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