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some stuff i've written about doubt

Hath God Said?

I have a three-year-old son who’s learned the authority that comes with citing a higher power. “Can I watch a show? Mommy said yes. Can I have candies? Mommy said yes. Can we go for a walk? Mommy said yes.” He…


Why We Left the Church (Our Stories)

We are an entire generation with the broken pieces of our religion scattered on the floor around us. We are the children who learned fake smiles too early, who found all the right answers dissatisfying, who know what it’s like…


5 Reasons I Reject Unconditional Election

“Unconditional election is God’s free choice before creation, not based on foreseen faith, to which traitors he will grant faith and repentance, pardoning them, and adopting them into his everlasting family of joy.” – John Piper Once upon a time,…

An Anthology of Madness

An Anthology of Madness (A Review)

“Grace is the most magnificent force on the planet, and it is not to be reckoned with. It is intangible, yet smothering. It is the only thing which must first drown us before it can rescue us.” Max is not…

Stack of Bibles

I Don't Want To Read the Bible Anymore

It started with a small complaint. A small complaint in a big parking lot with a heavy push-broom and puddles of gravel and dust. It didn’t seem fair that He was invisible. They said that He was the most important…

House of Cards

The Day I Stopped Believing in God

By then, I was already having doubts. Sitting across the table from new friends who didn’t see any reason to believe in God, I had tried to explain to them why I did and why it mattered. But this was…

You Can Be Free

You Can Be Free

“Brothers and sisters, you can be free!” The words came fast and rushed up from inside my heart. I hurried to write them down, driving on the freeway scrawling nearly-unintelligible phrases on the nearest scraps of paper I could find….